Up to this time, a lot of my prayers have not been answered, though I believe God, in his faithfulness, is at work and will soon provide me and my family rescue. But when, Lord? We so badly need financial rescue to pay off our debts incurred by my eldest son's problems--and he's still threatening to commit suicide in his desperation.
The total debt is almost half a million pesos now from different persons. Two private hospitals are after him because he did something dishonestly when he had his girlfriend confined in them, saying he had money to pay when he didn't.
You know how it feels when you're supposed to be a servant of God but your son has been living a wrong life and is suicidal? All these though you've been praying for your sons since they were born, praying for them almost everyday, that one day they'd surrender their lives to Jesus, live righteously, and serve the LORD. But it feels like God didn't hear me.
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Feeling that God does not hear your prayers—or worse, that He hears but remains silent—can be one of the deepest pains of faith. It is especially heavy when you're overwhelmed by debt, crying out for rescue, yet seeing no visible answer. The heart wrestles with questions: Where is the prosperity promised? Where is the deliverance? This silence can feel like abandonment, even though you still believe in Christ and cling to His promises.
Bible passages give me a lot of comfort, especially when it shows men of God similarly situated. Job cried out in his suffering, saying, “I cry out to you, God, but you do not answer; I stand up, but you merely look at me” (Job 30:20). David lamented, “How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me?” (Psalm 13:1). Even Habakkuk questioned, “How long, Lord, must I call for help, but you do not listen?” (Habakkuk 1:2). These voices echo the anguish of unanswered prayers, showing that even the faithful wrestled with God’s silence.
But sometimes I wonder with deep brokenness why this has to be so. It hurts so much to see my son like that, lost and without hope, a stranger to the Lord. It pains me deeply. I prayed a lot that he would turn out to be a man of God. But now, this.
Yet, bible stories also remind us that silence does not mean absence. Job, despite his despair, declared, “Though he slay me, yet will I hope in him” (Job 13:15). David, after pouring out his lament, ended with trust: “But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation” (Psalm 13:5). Habakkuk, though he saw no immediate rescue, resolved, “Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior” (Habakkuk 3:18).
The pain of waiting is real, but worship in the waiting is powerful. God’s faithfulness is not measured by immediate answers but by His eternal promises. Even when rescue seems delayed, it is better to trust Him, for He is the God who hears, who remembers, and who, in His time, delivers.
