Have you noticed how the wicked are able to carry out their wickedness without any hindrance health-wise? Some of them do end up sick or disabled by ailment later in life--and that mellows them down so that their wickedness becomes lesser. But most times, the wicked are empowered with good health.
I don't have a mean personality and I'm not inclined to hurt anyone, though I'm wronged. But why this heart palpitation? I have been bothered by occasional palpitations due to excess electricity in my heart, and it's regulated somewhat by my doc with a half pill of Bisoprolol 2.5 mg daily. Thank God for the remedy.
But nonetheless, why the palpitations? I've been praying for years and with faith for supernatural healing, but it's still there. My doc says it's going to cost me P250,000 to get rid of it through a heart catheter surgery, or something like that.
Recently, I was talking to a "Christian" who often boasts of being able to maim anybody anytime he wants it. I've seen him cruelly deal with one of his followers--he was spanking him hard to teach him something, and the follower was pitifully crying--and they were gown-ups, something like 30 years old. And the cruel guy just enjoys good health. God blesses such people with good health. It often triggers me to wonder why the wicked are empowered with good health, and I have heart palpitation.
And this guy (let's call him martial arts guy or MA) often has a tough way with people. He would easily get irritated by the smallest and simplest provocation--even unintended ones--and immediately threaten harm, with use of his martial arts skills. I'm also a 5th dan blackbelt in martial arts, but I never behave like that. My wife knows this--she's familiar with how kind, patient, and understanding I am with people, even offensive ones.
When I see guys like this enjoying good health and body strength--and I have heart palpitations--that's when I hate life and again ask myself what kind of life is this? I don't want mean people to get sick or to suffer palpitations or anything bad for that matter--what I always ask from the Lord is this: If they're not sick, all the more should I not be! If they're enjoying good health, all the more should I. Not because I deserve it, but because I believe in his fairness, goodness, and justice. So, where are these now?
I also often see criminals having the good health and body strength to carry out their daring crimes. I often wonder, if they had heart palpitations, they wouldn't be able to do the cold-bloodied deeds they had been doing. But as it is, God gives them good health.
Is it the devil who enables the wicked to do what they are able to do? I don't believe that. Only God is the Creator and Owner of our bodies. He alone decides what happens to us health-wise. He makes lips mute, ears deaf, and eyes blind. He also makes them talk, hear, and see respectively. He has the power to allow or disallow anything. The devil can only wait what God decides upon. The devil has no power to do anything of his own accord.
God does not tempt and cannot be tempted with evil. But he certainly allows or disallows things. Nothing happens in life and on earth without his approval. No one can charge with him with wrong; he is perfect and holy and righteous, forever more. God is blameless forever. God is also wise, and is in fact the Fountain of wisdom--he is Wisdom itself.
Yet, I ask why the wicked are empowered with good health, and I have palpitations?
I am a health buff, God knows that. I exercise regularly and am careful about what I eat. I don't abuse my body. And yet, this palpitation. I sometimes even have other ailments and I can't figure out why I have them, and yet the wicked enjoy good health. They smoke and smoke and get drunk, and yet do not get sick. Well, they do in the end, but they get sick only in th end. I get sick even if I'm careful about my health. And I think it's all stupid during the times when I hate life.
But then, I see God and just keep mum and surrender to his will. I trust that he knows all this better than I can observe and analyze or meditate them. When I see God, all arguments melt down. But I always talk to him about these things. I struggle and wrestle with God as Jacob did. He came out of the wrestle walking with a limp. I guess, the more I wrestle with God, the more I'd walk with a limp--that's why I'm limping.
Lord, I just want you to change me, transform me, without the limp. Is that possible? It seems I've been walking all my life with that limp, and people see me as a weakling. I understand what a limp is for, but would you please do away with it now, since I've had enough of them? I mean, I don't see anybody around me limping more than I do.
Would you please just live my life, destroy everything that is not yours, without adding anymore to my limp? I think I'm sick of limps. Just bless me and live my life. Just pour yourself on me and fill me with YOU, minus the limps. And don't empower the wicked. Let them not keep on boasting and make a weakling of me. Nonetheless, not my will, but your will.
But I know this is your will, Lord....it's written.
