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You know what I keep asking from God almost daily? Good health, no ailment and healing, among other things.
Good health.
I never asked God for kidney problems.
And I can't figure out how my creatinine level would increase and how a trace of protein would be found in my urine. I'm a health buff and always eat healthy food, never been a drinker or smoked cigarettes. I drink only water and fresh fruit juices. I drink a very small cup of wine every communion which is once a month.
I've been asking God for financial blessings that would set me and my family free from depending on people who put us down just because we have no money. So far, God hasn't answered that. And he said if you ask anything in My Name, I shall do it. This baffles me.
I believe his promises. All of them. With all my heart. Yet, why doesn't he make them all work for me?
And yet, the heathen get all they want even if they pray to gods and idols. Some never pray at all. I always see them live very comfortable lives.
I'm not envious of them---it's just that, if they get the blessing, so should I. Because I believe in the Lord. At least, the Lord should rescue me from abusive people---because I believe his word.
Yet, we continue to suffer lack and have to rely on people who look down on us---even church people who treat us unkindly many times just because we have no money.
And then, there are all sorts of criminals who do what they do without physical impairment. I have these heart palpitations now and then that keep me from doing the athletic things I want to do. I want to be as athletic as I can for health purposes. To glorify God. And yet, I have these health problems.
But criminals and the wicked---no health impairment prevents them from doing harm. They just do harmful things to people anytime they want. And they succeed. Well, some of them get caught later, but they succeed with their violence.
WHY?
I continue to seek and meditate his word. I continue to believe. Only God is faithful and true and he alone has all the answers.
But for now, there are many things I don't understand.
