Boils Again, Et Al

Boils again. Oh yeah, here they are again. I wonder why those who smoke and take illegal drugs don't have them. I'm always told that boils are caused by blood impurities. Me, have blood impurities? Why? How? I've always been a health buff. I don't smoke or take illegal drugs or drink liquor.

It's not that I wish bad people bad things. But I expect God's Word in the bible to happen--He said those who destroy their bodies, which is the Holy Spirit's temple, will be destroyed by God. God said that, not me. I don't have to pray for that to happen because God promised it would. I always expect God's words on situations. I pray for bad people to repent and be saved, but on top of that, I expect God's Word to come to pass.

And the boils are often on my inner legs, and when I walk and my legs rub against each other, the pain is terrible. I take antibiotics--I have taken them to get rid of them but they're back. AND I DON'T KNOW WHY!

There have been heinous crimes committed around here, why not put the boils on the perpetrators? Why me? I'm really sick and tired of these. I've always asked God to change my life because since youth I have been having stupid skin diseases I think I don't deserve. If I were a smoker, I'd understand all these. But I'm not. I'm a health buff, and I take baths daily. I wear clean clothes. I eat healthy food. I even take supplements rich in Vitamins and micro nutrients.

And to top them all, I pray to God. I hope in him. I ask him to stop all these, because I know that he alone has the power to do everything. Nothing is hard for him. He can change all these for the better with a simple flick of his fingers. Or even with a mere wink. He is all powerful. I always praise and thank him for everything.

Now, the ordinary person out in the streets doesn't have to pray to God and hope in him, but he doesn't get any of these stupid skin diseases. A lot of people do not have to have faith in God and pray daily to have a good life--a life without the pains I have. A lot of people get rich without relying and praying to God. While I and my wife, we work hard doing our business, and then we hope and rely on God alone, and we pray and trust him, and yet we get only a small income from it. But we still praise God for it.

But other people in the business we're doing, they womanize and play with their faith, and yet they get a lot of money. Those who degrade the Name of Jesus Christ, maligning his Deity get a lot of earnings. I don't understand all this, especially when I read in the Word that wants to prosper his saints and even gave the promise that they are given the power to produce wealth for his glory. He so easily made Abraham and Isaac and Jacob rich.

I'm not asking for millions; I'm simply asking a life that is abundant, as he promised, a life where you won't have to depend on people, especially on the ungodly and those who have fake faith, claiming to be Christians but having the devil's character. I want a life that is independent of people, but totally dependent on God. I don't want people giving me alms because we look pitiful to them. Jesus NEVER lived like that. Neither did Paul or the Acts church. So I want that life. God, I've been praying, please give me that life.

There will be moments of being in abundance and being in want. The Word says we have to get accustomed with being content in whatever circumstances. But life has to have that abundance and want balance. And being in abundance is something me and my wife and kids have yet to experience. It remains to be seen. It's been like this--we get a little extra income, and then God permits sickness or some other thing that incurs expense, sometimes an expense that is greater than the little extra income we made. Please God, enough  of that. I don't want that, and I never pray for that.

Then you just see the wicked getting so much profits, more than they need, so that they can afford to be arrogant, do all kinds of wickedness, and snob God more. And yet they continue to get blessed financially. I know that how much money you have is not the standard of favor and genuine blessedness. But the reality is that, you pay bills with money. You build God's spiritual Kingdom on earth using money in a very large sense. Even the Acts church used money. Even the Lord Jesus Christ accepted financial support from his women disciples.

Yeah, boils again. And it's really, really silly. I don't know the reason for it...to know that God is God? I've known that for years now, that's why I and my wife chose to surrender to God and be in his radical present move. That's why we cling to him daily, each moment, because we see daily that HE IS GOD, and there's no other. That's why we hate anything of this world. That's why we left denominations that only build their own empires, their petty little kingdoms, mere kingdoms of men. That's why we're all-out for God!

Please God, help me. Help us. We praise and worship you, God, our father, Creator and Owner of everything, the Author of LIFE. The Author of Godly sufferings and prosperity, at the same time.

To God be all the dominion, power, and glory, now and forever, Amen!

When I hate life and begin to ask what kind of life is this, I just cling more to God and rest in him alone.