Thank God it's not a falling apart home. My family is intact and strong, by God's grace. But the house is falling apart due to wear and tear...and termites. It's old and dilapidated. I wonder when God is going to send the finances. God, I need lots of money.
The house looks terrible from the outside and inside. Aside from people seeing it awkwardly small, the paint is turning old, giving the house an archaic look--like it was built during the Japanese occupation. God, please send the money sooner. The house really and urgently needs renovation. It's a mess.
So it really does work this way--believers get to suffer like they do not get any favor from God, and those who are just religious but don't pay attention to you get to look like they're so favored...materially, that is. So that's the cross? But I do believe that you will also bless believers financially for Kingdom building, God. And my house is being used for Kingdom building.
But I can't see any sign that the blessing--the money--is coming. However, you've said in your Word that you can turn a whole nation around, or create one, in just a day or in just a moment. You are God--nothing is impossible to you. You are sovereign--you can make anything you want happen. Even the sick who had no sign of getting well a second ago, you made totally healed and new the next second. To you, God, radical and extreme change can happen in between seconds.
So I keep hoping in you. In fact, my whole life seems to be that--my and my wife's life--waiting on you. Just waiting...
I just watch the house falling apart. I have a job and so does my wife, but our joint incomes cannot do anything about it. Thus, even if so many people see that the house is falling apart, they think we're not doing anything about it. They think we're negligent. Of course, they also think we don't have the money. But we're definitely doing something about it...we're hoping and waiting on you, God. We're living supernaturally.
And not only the house...now I see the need to go to my spiritual father in Malaysia once a year, and I have to go with my wife some time later. I have to pursue my spiritual career and have all the schooling and training I need in Malaysia. For all these I hope and wait on you, God--and so much more.
You are my Supplier, God. I want to experience you supernaturally.
I and my wife...we're always waiting...always hoping....
